I got up at 8, and I'm slowly cleaning/packing up my room and apt. I have a few more big things to carry out, then it's just picking up all the odds and ends that I missed. I should pack up my computer now too, so it can no longer encourage my procrastination. My last day in Harbor! I'll be in Madison tonight! Anyone want to hang out? not looking forward to the drive, hopefully my cd player works for most of the drive. Ok...well i should go finish. Look forward to a happier Sheena from now on!

this is a haircut i might want...what do you think? 

Life.....

I've realized why summer gets to me so much. Normally during the school year I am always doing a million things, my To Do list is pages long, and although I get stressed out by it, I love it. And now in the summer, all I do is work and not work. It gets old REALLY FAST! Though this summer is very different then I expected, I thought it would be a lonely summer, but I've found people to chill with sometimes, and snuggle with at other times. That's what I really want though, some to just lie with. You know how great it is for someone to just hold you...so I'd really like that one of these days. I'm going to Madison from Saturday-Tuesday Night! So that is super exciting, I'm going to stay at Colleen's in Fitchburg, but I'm so excited to chill with people and just relax at home! I also need to move out and in, and get myself organized, hopefully take a few job interviews for the fall, I think I want to get out of the school of music, and maybe a restaurant or something else that will hopefully pay more. I think this is going to be a very expensive year....so I'll need money for it. I also want to do some roadtripping, though if gas prices go up like they're supposed to, I don't know if I'll actually be able to afford it. I hope everyone else's summers are going amazing, and I'm so excited to see everyone soon! If you'll be there this weekend, CALL ME! We'll have a party!

I'm really sick of always being tired here, I'm looking forward to an easy semester...which brings me to another thought, David wants me to be in his Form and Analysis class, though I think it would be really hard, and I don't know if I really want to have a class that I really have to work at...as slacker esque as that is, this is supposed to be my easy semester before I have to go into the real world.

Ok, i'm having trouble staying awake, so I may as well just go to sleep. Goodnight!

Scary dream...in a bulleted list
-Julie divorces Jason
-I see flashbacks from him fighting in some war
-Adam comes to Harbor
-He's coked out
-He tells me that he loves me
-I push him away

Not a scary monster kind of dream, but I woke up crying-- uncool.

hmmmm...i need to start liking guys who aren't projects. When i get back to Madison in the fall I want to start dating. Anyone have any friends? Today I was rather domestic, I volunteered at the humane society and walked a dog, and then I came home and picked a quart of raspberries from my yard. Then I went to my 2nd cater out this week, really wish I could have made more. But whatever...it's cash. 190 for 2 nights of ~7.5 hours total. I do have an itchy bugbite on my shoulder now :( I work at the club tomorrow for the first time since Tuesday lunch. I really can't wait to get back to school. As much as this hasn't been a bad summer, there's really been nothing good about it either, it's just sort of passing time. Watching family guy right now, I'm going to bed soon. I like another tv show now, Lost is so good. I really can't think in complete sentences right now. later.

this is my wonderful uniform at work 

Well Harbor Springs is good. It's just super chill as I don't drink often, and spend most of my time just hanging around home. Right now I'm sititng on the porch at Beachview in between shifts and waiting to eat and then go back to work for a giant cookout. I'm super tired and very glad to have the day off tomorrow, though I have no idea what I will do, as I have absolutely NO money...maybe find someone to go to the beach with. It'll be nice to get back to school with all the cool people and I'll be 21 soon after I get there!

For any of you bikers out there (Chris, Al) you really should come out here, I have a great ride for you if you do, it's absolutely gorgeous.

The weather is super gorgeous, wish i didn't have to work in it though, I'd rather be floating down the river.

People here are mostly ok, I don't hang out at beachview ever, so I think they find me anti-social, but whatever, I grew out of all that shit, I don't really feel like being in the middle of a real world episode, and the people at the apartments are way more super chill to be with.

I don't think I've ever been this broke in my life....really can't wait to get paid, and I hope they fix my check from last time. And probably a record for the LHC, I haven't spent a single cent on alcohol yet this summer. Still haven't gotten internet at the apartment...don't think I will. Slowly getting over my addiction to it ;)

This summer I will be getting my wisdom teeth pulled....it's scary. My insurance doesn't pay for me to get knocked out though...so I might have to wait until I can get enough cash to do it....I don't know if I can live with just being numbed, I'm to much a chicken.

now i remember why i don't really drink anymore...i don't like being hungover. I've been smoking much more than drinking, and haven't drank to get drunk in so long that i had forgotten what it is like. We (Tom, April, Wes, Jim, Liane, Andrew, myself) went tubing down Indian River yesterday it was super fun, we all lost multiple pieces of clothing, almost lost our cooler....we got home and were supposed to go out to a fancy dinner, but they ended up grilling out, and I ended up sleeping because I was beat. Today i also have the day off, was supposed to go to Interlochen with Lee to see Bobbie McFerrin, but I don't think I have the energy, right now I'm at thelibrary waiting for Liane to get done at the clinic....I think my meter will run out first..... oh well. I've been very anti-social this summer, oh well, not mean anti-social, I'm trying to bwe friendly with people, just not friends.... I am really craving a starbucks mint-mocha frappuchino however corporate that wish is.

I really need to decide what I want to do after I graduate...grad school, teach?, work? who the hell knows. Right now, I do need to actually start practicing, my chops are getting out of shape.

Shit...i'm so broke.

I thought it'd be safe coming to Harbor...that I'd be able to stay out of shit. Well I did pretty good....for the first 4 days at least. Blah! Oh well, hopefully I'll get internet soon. I miss it. Right now I'm sitting in an internet cafe and I can't get AIM to work on this computer so I can't have any talking therapy. Call me anyone! I need human contact! even just to say hi.... Well I think I'm going home on Wednesday, I have W-R off, so I might as well go home for a night, escape this place. Wow, I want to escape already. Most of the guys seem cool to work with though most are super fratty, and the girls seem mostly retarded, but I don't have to really work with any of them, so I'll survive their stupidity. I'm also doing housekeeping one morning a week, at what I thought was 7 am, but turns out they'd rather I start at 6...which means waking up at FIVE! blah. Why did I have to complicate things....though I didn't start it............did I? Don't judge me, please. I didn't mean to. I hate seeing people unhappy. hmmmmm....so today i have a day off, it's so slow still! well, it will be until the 4th. So I'm just going to chill around petoskey until 5ish, and then go back and see if I can find anyone to do something with.

Back in Michigan. We got done working at about 2:30 on Monday, and I decided to leave. So I left Charleston at 5pm and drove until I arrived at my aunt Carol's at 9:15 am. Granted I took a few 20 min. naps along the way when I couldn't keep my eyes open. But how's that for my first all-nighter. Yesterday, I did nothing but sleep and chill. Today I woke up at 10 and drove to Ann Arbor, had lunch with Watt and Ian at Mongolian BBQ and then went and chilled in Barnes and Noble for a while. Now I'm back at Carol's, going to chill for the rest of the night...maybe watch some TV, and then tomorrow morning, I'll leave early, drive to Rhea's to visit them and my grandparents for awhile, then I'll drive up to Harbor Springs, and relax before I start work on Friday. I'm looking forward to seeing some people again, and really hope that I can have a good summer there, here's to hoping!

Hmmm...maybe I'll watch some Friends until Carol gets home from work.

to end my photo blogging trip down memory lane, i will put a recent relaxing photo from charleston to complete the journey. 

my dock at my camp :)  

nate, senior year and scary 

ahh, my little sister rachel, at her bday my senior year... 

thanks for taking me guys! 

i loved moab :) 

ahhh...beauty 

ah, my best friend getting married! i love you jules and jay! 

pt. 2 

hmmm...i love madison music professors!