hmm....so what am I doing? Well, I only tend to post when
I'm drunk or emotional, and I'm both right now. I don't know what
i'm doing...Adam and I are back together, he professed his still love
for me in the shower the other morning.....but now he wants to sleep
alone (he needs to stretch out) and I can't kiss him in
public............goddamnit why can't i stop loving him. After
all we've been through I wish I could just move on and forget about
him, though I suppose that's why I can't--because we've shared so much.
Today us girls decided to HO out...I look hot, but what did he have to
say... "you look stupid, why are you guys dressed like that" but
I suppose that's alot to do with his dislike of anything sexlike--he
doesn't mind doing it, but god forbid talking or thinking about
it. But I'll do it, be with him---when he wants, who cares
about me....because I do love him, and I can't stop myself...and even
though everyone is dowstairs partying their asses off, and we've not
even dented 1 of the 30 packs, I just want to change into my pj's and
fall asleep. while I can be drunk and hopefully not think of
him....I guess I'll just go on flirting with everyone else, maybe it'll
ruin my chances with him, but whatever, I think we've had our best
times, everything from here on out will just be settling. Why
can't I just say goodbye to the memories?